First

You told me I was the most important person in your life but what I never told you was that you were mine as well.
It hasn't even been a day, and I can't stand the thought of not seeing you tomorrow
You were my first real scrabble opponent, which honest to god, I haven't stopped thinking about how badly I've been wanting to play these past few days...
You were the first person to ever make me feel wanted; as if I'm not hopeless and maybe things will turn out ok.
You are the only person I have ever known to show me love every single day and never give up on me.
You are the first person to teach me about what a relationship should be.
You always tolerate my constant need for control when I am in the car and put up with me even when it takes an hour to decide what I want to eat.
I am so thankful that you were my first boyfriend.


I love your love for reading.
Your passion for things that I never really understood.
Your admiration of your grandfather.
The way you look like a man from the 70's when your hair falls in your face
The way you'd kiss me on the forehead and squeeze me tightly.
And the way that you were always constant and I could always count on you.


Maybe this post is stupid and cheesy and pointless but I guess it should fit in with the rest of the blog... I just miss you

Babysitter

Ah today I got to babysit. I had already baby sat one of the girls before who is 4 and the other one that I met today is 9. They are so cute the 4 year old just craves attention and screamed her head off the whole time we ran around the house playing hide n seek. We watched a little bit of Halloween town RETURNS and it was DEPRESSING it doesn't even have the same main character so here I am questioning my childhood. But then I had to put them to bed so I had to lie to Ally, the little one and tell her I would call her mom and tell her to come home, just so she would go to sleep. And then she asked me to lay next to her and hold her hand until she fell asleep it was the CUTEST thing EVER. Baby sitting always gives me mixed feelings because it gives me a release of all the bad feelings of not seeing my real siblings but it also makes me miss them a heck ton more. Oh well. I'm pretty happy. I'm going to die at school tomorrow because it is TWELVE AM but it's ok. Today was a good day. I also got my mum!!!! Yay homecoming. I wish I could cut up my mum and give pieces of it to people that don't have one like in mean girls :(

Scrabble

Ahh well if I had to give the day a rating it would be "pretty crappy", just because I basically worked and slept all day. BUT I just got home from Blake's and we played scrabble. I had never played it (if you don't count words with friends) and it was so fun. I actually... surprisingly.... kicked his butt (ftw). So yeah here is a pic of that

and then he sang for me fbhsfghje I'm so lucky. and did I mention tired... This blog post is crap but I've been wanting to blog something all day so yup this can go down in the books as the official most pointless blog post I have posted yet.

HalloWEEEN

Movies to watch before October 31-

1. Hocus Pocus
2. The Corpse Bride
3. Interview with a Vampire
4. The Nightmare Before Christmas
5. Halloween Town
6. Edward Scissorhands
7. BeetleJuice
8. Coraline
9. Dracula
10. Don't Look Under the Bed
11. The Little Vampire
12. Mom's Got a Date with a Vampire
13. Creepshow
14. Young Frankenstein
15. Pet Sematary
16. It's The Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown

Dad

North Carolina has been on my mind today.
All I can think about is my dad.
I wish I could go back to that moment when he and I were watching Annie Hall together and I got up and left to go hang out with my friends.
I wish I would have helped him stack wood in the backyard just a little bit longer.
I wish I would have stuck it out a little bit longer and pushed myself further on that run with him so I could have talked to him just that little bit more.
I wish I could go back to that moment when I saw my dad for the first time in months when I visited him at his work and cried because I was so happy.
I wish I didn't live 1,200 miles away.
I wish he would call me just a little bit more.
It's not that I wanted to go to my friend's or where ever I ended up going that night, but I wish I would have chosen to stay and watch the rest of the movie with my dad. I can't get myself to finish it by myself.

Happy October

The sad part is that my page has 53 total views and 51 of them are probably all me. It's 10:35pm and I should be asleep but we all know that the likeliness of that happening any time soon are NONE. Might as well blog so I can stay up later and increase my chance of over-sleeping tomorrow morning... Today was awesome. Not the school part... But the Blake part. I may be a little obsessed with my boyfriend because he is perfect. He's basically the only one that reads this too so yes, hi babe this is to you... but look for yourself

Just pure happiness

But IT IS THE FIRST DAY OF OCTOBER. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS???? It's officially Halloween season!!!! AH. and from this point on it only gets better (Until New Years... Then everything goes back to depressing), but I really can't dtress enough (stress*** I chopped my finger off in art today so I can't type)... how happy I am AH, but it also doesn't matter because in the end.... Nothing really matters.........

So yeah pointless post number 4(??) JUST HAPPENED Y'ALL

Favorites

I love 85% of my life. Which is probably better than the majority of the population. I don't know I just have so many positive things and people to be thankful for and I don't ever, for one second, take them for granted. 
Last Friday was Blake's birthday so I got him this Chinese  dragon statue thingy (bc he likes that kind of stuff) and surprised him with tickets to the Breakaway Music Festival in Frisco. Not only was it a kick ass gift, but this meant I got to see my babies (m&k)..... and NOT ONLY DID I GET TO SEE THEM, BUT I GOT TO MEET THEM AGAIN. They are literally a blessing in my life, as gay as that sounds. So that was another highlight of my 17 years of living..
But I think he liked it :) and everyday that I spend with him I'm just reminded how lucky I am to be with someone like him. He literally puts up with so much of my crap and he's so understanding about everything, but that's enough about that. I really don't know what I would do without him. 
On top of that, my best friend is getting asked to homecoming tomorrow!!!!! Good thing no one knows about this blog so I'm allowed to say that stuff and not give anything away. Carina is the apple of my PEAR. She is everything I'm not. Literally. I'm an idiot and she is a certified genius. But anyways, she is finally getting asked and I couldn't be more excited✨ she deserves it more than anyone I know and I'm so thankful for her, period. She's awesome. 
So yup those are basically my three favorite things and I am #blessed

(M&K, Blake, Carina)

My pooch

So this being my first "real post", I thought what better subject to blog about than my dog. After all she is anything and everything that is important to me. It's fascinating to think about how a creature that can't communicate through words back to you can mean the world to you. She isn't just any four legged creature, she's my four legged creature, and yes; I am in love with my dog.
Since day one she has been my buddy. I had just moved to Texas and it was summertime. My mom and Tim (step dad) decided to go to Operation Kindness to check out some dogs.. just for fun- who were we kidding... Anyways, we go there and we see the cutest couple of border collie puppies. My parents and I ended up playing with the girl. She was so frightened, it was pitiful and I won't forget watching my baby puppy hide behind whatever she could to make herself feel safe. We weren't sure about adopting her until we walked back to her kennel to see that her brother was currently being adopted. How could we leave the little babe all by herself!!! So I guess the rest is history. 
Kira has changed my life in so many ways. When we first got her I had to spend about a month with my mom and Tim. I didn't have any friends and everything felt pretty lonely, so having her by my side made life livable. Then, junior year of high school, out of the blue... I decided to apply at the doggy day care that Kira went to! (I was hired). Working there has given me such a better appreciation for dogs. There really isn't a way to take them for granted anymore. Every day that I go to work, it is impossible to go home without a smile on my face... I don't know.. This post seems really silly, but I wouldn't be where I am today without my dog. She is the most lovable, intelligent, sassy, yet perfect thing that has ever happened to me.

first post

Ahh!!! Can't believe I'm actually writing my first post on a real blog! I've thought about creating one for some time now and thought it might be silly, but who cares! This will be my new happy place. It'll be interesting to see what I make of it and all I can hope is that I keep up with it and it isn't just an interest that I lose within a month or so... So, here we go! Bare with me...